What I used to think after that breakup:
1) I felt it is all my fault that he left..
2) I felt that Im not worthy bcoz Im fat..surely a CEO prefers a supermodel lookalike & not someone far like meeeeee...
3) I felt my life is over so, I better die quickly..
4) I felt like a failure..loser..*& yang sewaktu dengannya*
5) I felt that I better hang myself up the ceiling..
6) I felt so lonely eventhough my friends are around me..
7) I felt that I have nothing better to do besides crying & swallowing that pills til' Im dead..
8) I felt hopeless as I could no longer see the future bcoz he's longer around..
9) I felt comfortable in the dark..
10) I felt even if I rise up & shine again, I have no great purposes to do that..
11) I felt like a zombie..
12) I felt I don't belong in this world..
7 years later..
1) I know he will not even attend my funeral if I died at that time..He's too busy with other BIMBOS..ooopppsss..hehehe..
2) I know he will not feel what I had gone thru' - he's like cyborg; heartless..so what he know about loving someone so deep!
3) I know even if I cried blood, he will not return to me..Never..Ever!
4) I know even if I won the title "Supermodel of the Universe", he will not loves me again..
5) I did feel very angry with his actions until the urge to twist his neck & let him die was high but then again, I feel more angry with myself than with him..
6) I try my best to search for ways to see the blessings & positivities behind the breakup..
7) Yes! Some people see me like seeking revenge when I decided to travel (that's my activity he hates) again but the truth is - I feel peaceful each time Im away from Singapore for few days or weeks..
8) I learn to tell myself that it takes two to tango & also, to break up..whether I agreed or disagreed to it..but only 1 person got hurt in that breakup - ME!
9) I learn to see myself living without him & slowly I do it - LIVING WITHOUT HIM!
10) Im completely happier now..eventhough many pin-pointed that my life is incomplete without someone like him but,...heck care what others wish to say - it is my life & not theirs!
Lastly..
11) Im relieved that no one as crazy as him who texted me messages every 20-30 minutes daily & got offended when I replied his texted messages late..*Boleh pengsan tau*..Now I have the choice to reply or not reply any texted messages..My iPhone; my wish! LoL..
So, to all those who are heartbroken right now - just look at this fatty bom bom here..Ive tasted what you are feeling right now..Ive gone thru' what you are going thru' right now..It is OK if your sky is so dark & gloomy right now..Nothing lasts forever..so, someday the sun will shine again on your sky & who knows, the rainbow will be smiling at you too..Don't give up..
Cry..Cry..until you cannot cry anymore! After that, rise up & continue walking again..Love again when you are ready..if not, go travelling like me!
If a CEO dumped you, there are trillions of CEO out there who will adore & love you..
If a Director ditched you at the aisle, there are millions of Directors out there who will have no doubt in marrying you..
All you need - pray, live, love, smile & trust God again..
Scribbled by the most craziest X-Mrs CEO, me..YES! Ive dated a CEO but he broke my heart..that asshole..ooopppsss..hehehe..huhu haha..me, the cute female Gorilla..ahakz..Smiiiiiiile..
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