As a Muslim, I grew up with the Islamic beliefs my parents believe in..which are implemented in my brain..I was taught that it is forbidden to be LGBT..despite the fact during my growing up, I did came across related ones who had sex exchange..indeed, I saw it like common in my life..🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
Then in high school, I had a crush on this girl..She's very jovial kind of person but at the same time, can be such a bitch..I love the way she made her words known..Not bargainable..Very firm with what she wants & needs to believe..I love that in my women..ooopppppsss..🙈🙈🙈🙈
But this crush was a secret..I even covered this up with a well-known story of me having a crush on the goalkeeper of the school's soccer team..which indeed did not turned well bcoz I was FAT with pimply face..ahakz..but that did not affect me so much..🙉🙉🙉🙉🙉🙉
The girly crush - I called it just faded away after I graduated from high school..I dated alot of men who in return dumped me for the same old reason - I was FAT! Which led me to the weight loss programme..I invented myself with the help of slimming pill from my family's doctor..I lost weight - 40kg in total..Yes! I suddenly see myself as the main target of men chasing for love..I went with the flow..until the last man I so-called deeply in love with - Paul Crispin!🙊🙊🙊🙊🙊
Then, there I was wondering what's wrong with me..When I had a man, I was uncomfortable with his existence..unless some men pointed out that I was not serious about the whole relationship..😱😱😱😱Oooohh..I was????
When I have no man, I feel alone..No fun..That's when I started missing that jovial girl back in high school whom I had my first crush on..Thinking back, maybe I love women more than men..all these years, I was just trying to fit in the crowds..which led me to huge mistake..😘😘😘😘😘
Again, Islam forbids same sex relationship which is more than just casual friends..Furthermore, Singapore has not legalised same sex marriage..wanna get married, do it outside Singapore..which to me - if I chose to do the same, I will head back to The Netherlands to get it official..ahakz..Another issue, I have no other women..only that girl whom I secretly have crush on..back in high school..😚😚😚😚😚😚
Called me "coward"..yes, I am! The issue is - I am too scared to provoke Allah..Yes, I know..I am not that religious anyway..but to be cursed by Allah for following the Prophet Lut's protestors..I don't think I can do it..So, I just protest in silence by not marrying any men..👹👹👹👹
Not getting married forever..bcoz I don't see the need to have a husband when I, myself wanna be the husband..I will only get married when my parents forced me to get married to someone..but indeed I will definitely tell my future husband-to-be the whole truth about myself..that I love women too..hmmm..Any takers??? 😂😂😂😂😂
Ok..ok..Skeleton is out of the closet..No secret..No question why I am not married still..ok..ok..bye..bye..💀💀💀💀
#IsupportLGBT
#IamOneOfThemSecretlyAllTheseYears..
