In my teens, I told myself that Im going to study hard & achieve my dream career..
In my 20s, I told myself that Im going to enjoy life at the fullest..clubbing during the weekends..having fun..with my besties!
In my early 30s, I told myself that Im going to be a beautiful wife & a sexy working momma of twins. I also told myself that Im going to have to delete some so-called "besties" bcoz they are present only to get their needs fulfilled by me..So, NO MORE besties for me..Just friends are more than great to have in life..I shall STOP being the "walking ATM machine" & "Social Welfare Officer"..I shall just listen to others' problems, acknowledge it by "Ooooh ok" & do nothing thereafter..
In my late 30s, I told myself that Im going to STOP dreaming of having a wedding, getting married, having a rich husband & giving birth to 2-3 sets of twins..That's NOT happening in my life ever..I need to be realistic..I need to get real, Bitch! #LoL
When I reached 40, I told myself that "ALL MEN ARE THE SAME" - only know how to hurt me so, Im going to STOP getting too closely attached with men..Yupz! I draw an invisible line..I stared at men who smiled at me with a comment in my head "Another troubles in my life if I fall into this EVIL trap of smile"..Told myself too that Im going to work very hard, study hard & travel around the globe..My career will earns me money..My study will upgrade my salary rate..My travel will remind me that Im doing alright & it is ok to live without a husband like those married women..Singlehood is the best life God has chosen for me..Only I can handle life as a SPINSTER forever..
When I reached 41, I told myself that Im going to adapt to my new lifestyle as someone wearing hijab, to earn alot of money, to have my own flat to live in (alone & far away from nosey siblings & relatives who are TOXICS to my life all over these years) & to go on more solo trips overseas..including short trips..that's all I look forward to in my life from this day forward!
Ameeeeen..
