W.e.f. 1st September 2016, I changed my mind about wearing hijab forever in Singapore..Yeah! I no longer wearing hijab..1 year is enough for me to endure all mistreatments people around me were giving me..just bcoz I wore hijab..Especially at workplace..Haiiiizzz..
Indeed based on my personal opinion, wearing hijab is a not well-recommended in Singapore Workforce..Not trying to discriminate or being racist but just based on my real experience especially at workplace eversince I started wearing hijab in August 2015..after my return from Sydney, Australia!
I also started learning & embracing new faith & new belief..No commercial name for my new faith & belief..My new faith & belief - "GOD exists but your life depends on you; not GOD"..I am more calm eversince I changed my faith & belief..I no longer blamed GOD for whatever bad happened in my life like I used to do in the past as a Muslim..Now, I believe that I just need to work harder to get whatever I wished for..if I really want it!
Indeed, I prefer this kind of simple faith & belief..Seriously, ISLAM is too much for me to bear & endure..As a Muslim, I kept expecting great returns from GOD for all the "solat" aka performing prayer & "zikir" I did so far..for all those miscellaneous thingy ie do not consume alcoholic drinks..do fast during Ramadhan..do not do this & that..I expected GOD to repay me well..But I was disappointed when I noticed that GOD only gave me more problems in my life which I found not worthy..unfair..I was frustrated back then..I admitted that I have wasted alot of my energy being an angry person..a furious Muslim!
Not anymore..as nowadays with my new faith & new belief, I no longer that angry person..ie right now I still have no job but I don't blame GOD anymore..I just regard my jobless situation as an ourcome of my not working hard enough in searching for job..I just tell myself that if I really want a job, I have to work very hard in my jobhunt & don't give up..I am more calm right now..I have stop blaming GOD & myself..If I want something, I have to go out there to get it..right now, I no longer feel wanting a job..eventhough I have alot of outstanding bills..hehehehehe..So, Ive stopped applying for job..FULL STOP! Relieved!
