Thank You, Allah for choosing me to be the one You test with this ordeals which You wrote at Loh Mahfudz 500,000 years ago..
Thank You, Allah for making me unable to afford that "lethal weapon" for if I do, I won't be here to thank You for this kind of life which I pray hard no other human should have bcoz not only it is boring to the core but it sucks too..
Thank You, Allah for casting me aside but still making me understand that not all prayers will be answered & all dreams come true but still, I do respect & trust You bcoz only You can make my life sucks or happiest or the best which other will envy about..right now for me - life sucks but it is ok..as I still have no intention to make it short by committing suicide as usual..
Thank You, Allah. Now I shall just chill out & relax while enjoying every moment of this new page of living chapter. I shall stop the jobhunt bcoz nothing works or going to work for me..so, let it be..
Wanted to be angry towards Allah but some people regard such action as inappropriate, ungrateful, not thankful & very negative so, let just pretend to be grateful, thankful & positive towards Allah despite the fact if Allah is a human, I have no hesitation to grab a gun & shoot him straight thru' his forehead..but again, Allah is the name of God for the Muslims & not a human so, what more can I do to stop Him from bothering my life, right???
