I will always remember what's written & forwarded to me..years ago..
"You are not compatible to be with him..He is a CEO whereas you are not even fit to be a supermodel..But I just don't know what he saw in you..even after you both broke up & he came to me after less than a month after your breakup, he still cannot forget you..I don't know what so great about you that drives him crazy..But I'm letting you know this - he broke up with me bcoz of you, Dewi..You are the reason why he broke my heart..Again I repeat, bcoz he can't forget you, Dewi.."
It really shocked me at first to receive such email from stranger who claimed to be his girlfriend after me & blamed me for her breakup with him..The fact that she became his girlfriend after less than a month from my breakup alone really hurts me deeply..how fast his so-called "true love" changed direction..I was disappointed with this fact bcoz I was still not over him but learning that he had moved on that fast, it really tearing my heart apart back then..
I was frustrated so I did Bcc him in my reply email to that so-called "ex-girlfriend" of his..He responded immediately & denied it all..He admitted that he left me but not to be with someone else..it was me who pushed him away & immatured..If you, readers in my shoe - will you believe him?? I did not believe him a bit eventhough how I wished I can believe him..but what hurts me deeply was the speed he moved on after that breakup..
I felt as if my fat body is the cause of everything bad that had happened..I was devastated with the fact that I was unaware that fat person like me cannot date & fall in love with a big shot like him..So unfair this world indeed!!
That email however really made me realised even more where I stand in this world..as a fat person who is NOT a supermodel.Yes! Due to such reminder - Til' this date, I'm no longer dating new guys..I would stay away..far far away from big shot ie CEO like him bcoz I know that I'm too fat, too plain, not highly educated, not multi-rich & I'm not on magazine cover as the most beautiful & sexiest woman in the world..I should NOT go out with such BIG BOYS..who are BIG BOSSES..Now all needs to know why I did not entertain any big shot after Paul Crispin..I'm NOT a supermodel skinny..eerrrrgggggghhhh..
I always remind myself that I'm only compatible & just deserved someone like Harlem..a skilled worker who has to work extra hard to make ends meet..not educated - did not even passed PSLE aka elementary school education..just a simple Asian guy who has a job & very hardworking..simple life! Yes! I only deserved & fated to be Mrs no. 2 with simple life..
